With the desire to get in shape, I have not wanted to
purchase any new clothes, but I am going someplace special tomorrow night. None
of my dressy tops fit me as they are too small these days. My dresses have not
fit for a while, nor have my skirts. So, since I am going to a Christmas show, I long to wear something feminine and fashionable. Maybe it is
a girl thing, but is it wrong to want to feel pretty? Since I have gained so
much weight over the years, I feel frumpy and well...ugly and not the least bit
feminine at all. With this mindset, it is difficult for me to muster up the
will to go above and beyond... presentable.
As I said at the beginning of this post, I am going to a
Christmas show, but not just any show, it is a yuletide celebration featuring
our city’s symphony. An extravagnza, really. Maybe it is selfish, but perhaps
it is my feminine spirit wanting to wear the best I have. Only, my best
is not fitting yet. With the desire to wear something pretty tomorrow night, I
knew I had a window of opportunity to shop this afternoon. Well, on the way
home from a birthday party, I decided it wouldn’t hurt to look. A good friend of mine gave me a promotional
gift card from Kohl's that she got in the mail and was not going to use. It
expires today, so...I decided to fight the holiday hustle and bustle and went
to Kohl's, just check things out. Even though I had the gift card, my cash flow
is low, but I thought maybe I could find something fairly nice on my shoestring
budget.
And I did, but I found even more…here is the story:
There it was, hanging up on the wall, a blouse fit for
a PRINCESS! The recessed lighting above shone down on the textile marvel and I
think I heard the singing of a distant choir. With bated breath, I reached up
to see if there would be one for me. And there was! Unable to contain my little
gasps of joy, I carefully freed the blouse from the display arm. Holding it out
front of me, I admired the colors found only in deep forests and the pattern
created by a genius imagination. Delight and elation consumed me as the price
captured my vision. It was too good to be true! With haste, I made my way
through the maze of garment racks to the price check machine. The sale price was
$14.70!? Minus the $10.00 card, my Princess blouse cost me $4.70! I could just
cry! The most beautiful princess blouse in the whole entire world is hanging in
my bedroom. It is a rare find, a treasure indeed. What a blessing!
I know I bought my current size, but finding this beautiful
blouse is more incentive for me to keep on keepin’ on! I’m tired of feeling frumpy instead of feminine.
Since there are more clothes to choose from in the smaller sizes, I hope my
inner fashionista rises up, to help motivate me in my weight loss endeavors! As
I shrink in size, I hope to have more shopping experiences that turn out to be
adventures like today instead of a perfunctory chore. With God’s help, I can do it! I want to do it! Not for the clothes, I want to be the me God
intended me to be: healthy and
feminine.
