Friday, June 29, 2012
The time has just blown by!! I cannot believe I have not written in my blog since April 25! My last blog post indicated I needed to start viewing my life in the perspective of a story. Well... lately my story has certainly been a doozie!
There is no way to detail everything that has happened since April 25, but I can tell you for the first time in my life, I can actually say I love what do for a career. Loving my career was the result of viewing my life through the perspective of a story, not just any story, though... history. Everyone has a story to tell, but I was not viewing my daily activities and comings and goings as part of a larger story. The people I work with every day have their own stories but together, we impact various parts of the world in which we work. I can bring joy, peace, love, kindness, gentleness into my daily activities or I could choose to bring jealousy, anxiety, judgment, intolerance, or a host of other negative attitudes with me to work everyday. Believe me, I've been the latter kind of person in a work environment (even this one) and looking back I see what a waste of flesh it was to be that way nearly every day. I was in a rut or steeped in self-loathing. Or something...
As I have been attempting to take stock of my life and realize what I do every day plays into the bigger story of history, I know I must choose daily what path I will take. Do I want to give or do I want to take? Should I invest in this person or that person or both? What if I could make a difference in the world? What if what I did mattered? What I have learned from viewing my life in the context of a story is everything we do matters! Every choice affects another person's story. Seemingly insignificant choices have the potential to be...a spark ...a catalyst ...a spring board ...an answer to someone's prayer. They also have the power to be ...a worst nightmare ...a bad day ...the last straw ...the last chance. We just never know.
So what does this all mean. What am I talking about? Well, I am a follower of Jesus Christ and as follower, I must be willing to do what He showed us to do in the Gospels. Love and forgive. Help and have faith. Submit to Him and say lead me. Ask God to reveal himself and listen, live, and love. What I have yet to mention, though, is the one thing that frightens me the most. That is the concept of "dying to self". To be a fully devoted follower of Jesus Christ is to say, not my will be done but yours. It means giving up what I want to let someone else have it. What is the best part of "dying to self"? It means once I die to myself, my dreams are not my own, my life is not my own. It means I am about to really live the life intended for me to live!