Monday, March 12, 2012
Find Myself Lost
LOST is how I have been feeling lately. I looked up the definition of lost and found it has several different meanings. I can identify with most of them.
How do I find my way when all routes are distorted perceptions of clarity? Turning back would be a crushing defeat. The challenges and struggles have strengthened me some, although, there was wounding in the process. I've come too far to turn back, but what do I do now?
I've been restless and reckless in finding my way. Maybe there is no clarity because I am supposed to wait for awhile, and while I am waiting, I am to rest. Rest my mind. Rest my heart. Rest in the presence of the Almighty God. Jehovah. Jehovah-shalom. The God of peace. I need His peace so I can hear Him. I cannot move forward without a respite to refocus. My prayer is found in the following scripture from the book of Psalms.
Psalm 25:4-5 (NKJV)
"Show me Your ways, O Lord;
Teach me Your paths.
Lead me in Your truth and teach me,
For You are the God of my salvation;
On You I wait all the day."
If you think about it, pray for me. I have been struggling with uncertainty of where I should be and debilitating doubts of my direction. It is disheartening to me when I find myself lost. Yet, God is my salvation from myself and in Him I can reclaim hope that He will guide me when the time is right.